Diaries of an exile

[Tingleith]

Today for the first time I stumbled into vesper under my true identity a truly risk proposition given my exile and the possibility of a bounty on my head, In the name of peace I took it upon myself to seek them out to offer my apologies for the past treachury I had committed against them.

I was escorted by armed guards to the border but upon an odd stroke of luck rimeny called to me asking me to accompany him, Firstly I thought darn this is where it ends thinking my fate was bound for the cells followed by an execution.

Instead I was escorted to the redguard armory where the other guards were told to stand outside whilst me and rimeny discussed the matters at hand, He let me know that the exile still stands and that vesper shall not forget my misdeeds so easily but also that he and escaflowne shall be discussing the terms of my exile.

If it was under better circumstances I'm sure we would have had a nice chat and catch up but given the nature of the meet such things weren't feasible, we shook hands and I was asked to leave vesperian soil.

I await correspondence from the commander regarding what we discussed in hopes that the terms of redacting my exile don't place me in a jeopardising situation, it'll be nice to get closure on a few stones left unturned by my sudden exile from vesper and perhaps I'll finally learn some truths that I have sought for many moons.

[Tingleith]

Many moons since that day where kins blood was shed.

Many moons since I lost the control of my head.

Many moons may heal the external scars of the past.

Many moons alas many moons the internal scars shan't pass.

Many moons for reckoning soul seeking and repentance.

Many moons of guilt almost an everlasting sentence.

Many moons of borrowed days living on time overdue.

Many moons age the flesh scarring the innocence of youth.

Many moons of residing in a torn land driven by greed.

Many moons many grudges too many mouths to feed.

Many moons of hunger and thirst left unquenched.

Many moons of dwelling amongst the stench of death.

Many moons bring new faces fresh meat for the grinder.

Many moons will pass the mourning reminder.

Many moons standing strong yet shivering in the cold.

Many moons standing fragile yet dazed by the warmth.

Many moons ahead and more so following.

Many moons many families stolen from under the context of borrowing.

Many moons many quills too many men lost too many chills are tingling.

Many moons without a path a journey of longing begins to feel like lingering.

[Tingleith]

Tonight I was reinstated as a full Watchman yet the title feels worthless as I am not here for glory, I was not so long ago adamant to be reinstated but harsh realisations whilst soul searching led me to the conclusion it was a worthless push.

Nor am I driven by gold I have a tidy retirement stash from my deeds on the side so from now I may aswell donate to the coffers as those boots ain't free.

I know not what the future holds, no sense of duty no need for pride. I shall just grapple my fate and be along for the ride.

[Tingleith]

Well the time has finally come where I resigned from the covian military, Granted there's no such scheme in place I "Deserted" after putting in all that hard work to only be kicked in the teeth I had no other choice.

Given the current alliance the yewish have also chose to deny my presence on their land which I cannot really blame them for after all it could jeopardise the alliance, On a more positive note before those final events unfolded young footman lariss stumbled into stonekeep heavily wounded being carried by a footman, I immediately stepped in and suggested we took her someplace dry and out of the rain.

Firstly I started by inspecting her wounds managing to find a nasty cut across her head I proceeded to sterilised the wound by soaking a clean bandage in whisky then brushed it across the cut, I then wrapped another bandage around the wound to keep it from further contamination, the lass bit me during the process I don't blame her it must have been painful.

I do not yet know where my journey will take me i firstly plan to return to my roots in jhelom and learn more of my long passed family.